Driving home from the late shift tonight, in the dark and pouring rain, it occurred to me that I haven’t listened to loud, heavy music for quite some time. It was cathartic but judging by the slight ringing in my ears when I got home, I may have overdone it slightly π€£πΈπ₯π
In my 20s I fell in love with the romantic notion of this track being my funeral song. At that young age death is only a distant concept but there is something poetic and comforting about both the music and the words that would suit carrying a coffin out of a Church to a graveyard.
Initially the video was banned by MTV for being “pro-suicide” but lead singer Dave Mustaine denied this in a 1994 interview and gave the inspiration behind the lyrics as how I also understood them:
It’s not a suicide song. What it is, it’s, you, it’s when people have a loved one that dies and they end on a bad note, you know, they wish that they could say something to them. So this is an opportunity for the deceased to say something before they go. And it was my impression of what I would like to say to people, if I had say, 3 seconds to do so in life before I died I’d say to the entire world, to all my friends, I love you all, and now I must go. These are the last words I’ll ever speak, and they’ll set me free. I don’t have to say I’m sorry, I don’t have to say I’m going to miss you, or I’ll wait for ya. You know, I’ll just say I loved you all, good, bad, indifferent, I loved you all.
Arsenal of Megadeth DVD. Capitol Records. 2006
The track was re-released in 2007 as a duet with Italian singer Cristina Scabbia. I still prefer the original.
Don’t remember where I was I realized life was a game The more seriously I took things The harder the rules became I had no idea what it’d cost My life passed before my eyes I found out how little I accomplished All my plans denied
So as you read this, know, my friends I’d love to stay with you all Please smile when you think of me My body’s gone, that’s all
A tout le monde A tout mes amis Je vous aime Je dois partir These are the last words I’ll ever speak And they’ll set me free
If my heart was still alive I know it would surely break And my memories left with you There’s nothing more to say
Moving on is a simple thing What it leaves behind is hard You know the sleeping feel no more pain And the living are scarred
A tout le monde A tout mes amis Je vous aime Je dois partir These are the last words I’ll ever speak And they’ll set me free
(So as you read this, know, my friends I’d love to stay with you all Please smile, smile when you think about me My body’s gone, that’s all)
(These are the last words I’ll ever speak And they’ll set me free)
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